Tweakerworld

Jason Yamas

Meet Jason: a college educated documentary film producer, cat parent of two and one of San Francisco’s top drug dealers.

After Jason’s world falls apart in LA, he moves to Berkeley for a fresh start with his kid brother. Just one problem: his long-closeted Adderall addiction has exploded into an out-of-control crystal meth binge. Within weeks, Jason plunges into the sprawling ParTy n’ ’Play (PnP) subculture of the Bay Area’s gay community. It is a wildly decadent scene of drugs, group sex, and criminals, and yet it is also filled with surprising characters, people who are continually subverting Jason’s own presumptions of the stereotypical tweaker.

Soon Jason becomes a dealer on the pretense of researching this tweaker world for a project that will carry him, like a life raft, back to the shores of a normal life. But his friendly entrepreneurial spirit and trusting disposition disarm clients and rival dealers alike. The money begins to roll in as demand increases to frightening levels. Suddenly, Jason is in control of the entire crystal meth market for San Francisco’s gay community, even as he finds himself nodding off behind the wheel of his car, or walking down the sidewalk. As friends and family work frantically to steer him towards recovery, Jason resists, chasing something else: a sleepless nirvana fueled by sex, drugs, and the Tweakerworld.

With painful honesty, Jason Yamas has crafted a landmark narrative that is not just a personal account of addiction, but a portrait of a vulnerable, largely undocumented community of people who, for many reasons, have been marginalized to the point of invisibility.


Praise for Tweakerworld

"All memoirs about addiction written by those who have survived it are acts of service. Some of them are even written by real writers. The service in such instances is limned with a literary intent. This book is one of those. Reading Jason Yamas’s memoir of crystal meth addiction—and, yes, of hope, can itself be a redemptive act. But it is also in some odd, even troubling way, a pleasure which one realizes is what it feels like to be addicted."
Kevin Sessums, Bestselling Author of 'Mississippi Sissy' and 'I Left It On The Mountain'

"TWEAKERWORLD is a profound examination of our worsening crystal meth crisis, its intersectionality with trauma and gay culture, and how one man fought to define—and love—himself amidst harrowing circumstances. At once heartbreaking and triumphant, Jason Yamas is unflinchingly brave with the lens he points at himself, addiction in its many forms, and the path to healing. From the first page to the last, I was inspired, humbled, and ever grateful for this gift of a memoir."
Reema Zaman, Author of 'I Am Yours: A Shared Memoir'

"There are few people brave enough to tell this story— and it's one the world needs to hear— so what Jason Yamas has done with TWEAKERWROLD is both groundbreaking and important. He traces the forces that lead a person into the world of PnP, captures the horror that lies in the wait, and the pathway out. To capture both the personal struggle and the wider social context is the very essence of what great memoir should be. This also isn't a story that would only appeal to those within this world, but one full of big themes that many will relate to— and all wrapped in powerful, distinct, first hand experience. TWEAKERWORLD is a revelation."
Patrick Strudwick, BuzzFeed UK Journalist & Host of Audible's Original Ed Buck Podcast